Sunday, February 19, 2012
LOVE??
They ask me about love-why am I not in it why have I not had it- let me get deep- to love another you have to love yourself first- look in the mirror priceless seein self worth, I battle emotions tough on mistakes Ive made workin thru motions overcomin self hurt/ the guilt livin life to learn weavin thru situations breakin you down to build you up Im buildin tough- as time passes open up mentally to let someone in, easier said then done but its steps to take to get where you want to be - havin that feelin knowin someones down for ya to cheer you up make you smile that love that gives/ you peace inside- knowin this is the one Gods sent for you- Im on the journey to get there growin emotionally, mentally, financially has to come first, doors open when Gods will wants it- I trust that but in the mean time do self improving- I like the man Im becomin seein growth but still a ways to go Ive done more/ changin in the last 3 years then my entire life- for myself first then for my future wife- I look within myself and see Im not ready to become one -I still got work to do within me until I join forces, with a queen it takes time to become that- am I ready for love truthfully I dont know- my hearts fightin battles searchin for peace but Im open to blessings Gods got in store- I know where I was 3 years ago and where Iam today- not where I wanna be but maken progression with an open mind of course its/ moments I relapse thinkin to old ways knowin temptation tryin lure me back but I look for the new to be done with the old- love is a beautiful thing when its done in Gods hands, Im on my way there seein my faults workin and prayin thru them Im realizing being single is cool but slowly beginning to desire another one to call my own but most important keepin mind it happens in time with Gods plan/
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
HEAR IT TO FEEL IT
HEAR IT TO FEEL IT
Current mood: creative
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
Yo I don’t smoke when I’m stressed I bow my head say a prayer and hope for the best I lead with the pen speaking again thru turbulent times I’m holding my breath, knowing the test of life calls you trials and all- hard moments piercing your toughness ya mind questions your heart but thru it all I been chosen for this/ my faiths live spreading like a disease but this not a killer this is eternal life seeking- preaching thru poems- peep it its known yes I been told it best, shown in the flesh my parents installed values-my morals my backbone thanking God for my family- the teachings the lessons absorbed I see now there plan for there child- a Godly soul pure example I was raised in the church- see I went down the wrong road slowly getting back to holy ground so you scoping my steps/ Yo I’m not perfect but maturing is seen I been cured from the scene leaving temptation behind God leads me to light -man nothing is promised I could leave here tonight, not be here in sight but thru poems I'd be here aite- my life painted like pictures the price is priceless Christ says keep doing my thing- this is the talent implanted in me achieved here so nice/ I’m blessed everyone have something within them a God given gift- mine is with words- motivation used to give you a lift when down when times get the best of you, the stress to prove you belong I been there before so I confess to you, no less I’m due- my time is soon here- I’m waiting on deck ready to roll they calling my name- so chill quiet down I’m getting focused my dreams & goals I’m pressed to pursue/
Current mood: creative
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
Yo I don’t smoke when I’m stressed I bow my head say a prayer and hope for the best I lead with the pen speaking again thru turbulent times I’m holding my breath, knowing the test of life calls you trials and all- hard moments piercing your toughness ya mind questions your heart but thru it all I been chosen for this/ my faiths live spreading like a disease but this not a killer this is eternal life seeking- preaching thru poems- peep it its known yes I been told it best, shown in the flesh my parents installed values-my morals my backbone thanking God for my family- the teachings the lessons absorbed I see now there plan for there child- a Godly soul pure example I was raised in the church- see I went down the wrong road slowly getting back to holy ground so you scoping my steps/ Yo I’m not perfect but maturing is seen I been cured from the scene leaving temptation behind God leads me to light -man nothing is promised I could leave here tonight, not be here in sight but thru poems I'd be here aite- my life painted like pictures the price is priceless Christ says keep doing my thing- this is the talent implanted in me achieved here so nice/ I’m blessed everyone have something within them a God given gift- mine is with words- motivation used to give you a lift when down when times get the best of you, the stress to prove you belong I been there before so I confess to you, no less I’m due- my time is soon here- I’m waiting on deck ready to roll they calling my name- so chill quiet down I’m getting focused my dreams & goals I’m pressed to pursue/
MY PSA
MY PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCMENT
Current mood: focused
Category: Romance and Relationships
Yo everyone wanna ask me why Im single still on the market what kinda women Im into or what am I lookin for, its all I ever hear so me let clear this- Im focused on myself growing as a man finding the person Im supposed to be increasing financially a bread winner maybe when I get in that posotion I'll be a new dater for now a relationship not what Im pushin for/ knowin it takes time and a place for that to happen so daily Im prayin for God to lead me to the man a woman would love to marry and be with me forever, never settle for mediocore I gotta be confident within myself knowin Im well off in a situation to proceed with love- given a woman effort time and affection just cant get down like that now at this point its nothin to play with- Im only bein clever/ Im playin the field seein what these women have to offer and where there heads at /never will I turn down a friend I'll lend a listenin ear and be an encourager but commitment just wont happen -Im lackin need to work harder to be the man I know I can be, I hand these poems written straight from my heart so you know where I stand/ my growth as a man will determine when I welcome a woman into my life and can reach my hand out on that serious level /I know the process with me is grueling stressful frustrating too but may the best woman win it'll be intresting to say the least seein whose the last one standing champion as my queen in the end/
Current mood: focused
Category: Romance and Relationships
Yo everyone wanna ask me why Im single still on the market what kinda women Im into or what am I lookin for, its all I ever hear so me let clear this- Im focused on myself growing as a man finding the person Im supposed to be increasing financially a bread winner maybe when I get in that posotion I'll be a new dater for now a relationship not what Im pushin for/ knowin it takes time and a place for that to happen so daily Im prayin for God to lead me to the man a woman would love to marry and be with me forever, never settle for mediocore I gotta be confident within myself knowin Im well off in a situation to proceed with love- given a woman effort time and affection just cant get down like that now at this point its nothin to play with- Im only bein clever/ Im playin the field seein what these women have to offer and where there heads at /never will I turn down a friend I'll lend a listenin ear and be an encourager but commitment just wont happen -Im lackin need to work harder to be the man I know I can be, I hand these poems written straight from my heart so you know where I stand/ my growth as a man will determine when I welcome a woman into my life and can reach my hand out on that serious level /I know the process with me is grueling stressful frustrating too but may the best woman win it'll be intresting to say the least seein whose the last one standing champion as my queen in the end/
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD
MY RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD
Ever Since I remember my moms always had me in church- Sunday school or service I was there every week, this is my spiritual story so kick back listen and let me speak/ My moms and pops are deep when it comes to God the most spiritual individuals you'll ever run into, you need advice, a prayer, a kind word, helping hand encouragement they'd lend you/ every Sunday we'd be up in church- my 2 sisters, parents and I- I was too young to understand much but I heard numerous stories Jesus and God, the one who gave us life created the world the one you prayed to when times was hard/ my moms would always school me on events from the bible I wouldn't listen much my mind was idle, I tried to play it off back then going to church wasn't cool in school I'd never mention the subject in fear of losing points with the peers, I know it hurts to write that but this joint is real/ the older I got the more I learned about God and the son he sent us, beginner I gave my life up for God at age eight admitting he died for me washing away my sins thru forgiveness/ my parents was proud I was eager to learn more about being a Christian so when the preacher would speak I'd listen, witnessing the joy my parents had with God in there life I couldn't wait to see heaven for that I could only envision/
Time passed by teenage years hit me realizing me and the church was growing apart, I never told my friends about God embarrassed to say church was my home, at home my moms got on my nerves always referring to the Lord the more she talked about him the further my mind was gone/ no interest in it a teenager more concerned with hooping or which girl I was scooping, losing my faith values -getting in trouble daily everything I learned in church I was constantly abusing/ the truth is I let the devil in and he put me thru hell, thru jail and probation fights with the Fam I lost motivation to live-my freedom was taken trouble followed me like a shadow, I had to break my parents heart four or five times fighting always losing my battles/ I sat thru three years of heartache troubles all caused by myself had no one to blame nor nowhere to turn so I brought prayer back in my life, I was the lowest of lows crying each night looking for strength praying for escape with faith in the Lord I knew it would happen in time/ age seventeen I finally beat the devil at his game I slain him for the hurt and pain he inflicted, wishing I could forgive myself eight years later that part of my heart I still visit/
I'm no angel I wont always make the wisest decisions but I know when I sin I can pray for him to forgive them- at 24 I'm older a growing maturity seeing I cant maintain without the Lord guiding me, I try to be a leader by example you never know who you can influence so I do my best to be shinning big/ no longer hiding my feelings you know 24/7 I'm rolling with God getting crunk for Christ, I know he'll always look after me pulling me thru the bumps in life/ I'll say it to one say it to all GOD IS GREAT with him you cant lose worries is minimal- criminals, killers, rapist, dope fiends he loves the worst of us, he sent his only son to die for our sins his loves the cure for us/ I'm ashamed I denied him at my earlier age but since then I've witnessed his love and compassion, he's always hearing my prayers wiping my tears away its clear today in my heart he's here to stay so thankful for that I trust his actions/ at times I don't understand why events occur but I pray for guidance learning life as its given, admitting I'm nothing without him my life's right when he's in control God is love this is my relationship with God written thru personal experiences in the flesh I'm submitted/
sincerely JORDAN....
Ever Since I remember my moms always had me in church- Sunday school or service I was there every week, this is my spiritual story so kick back listen and let me speak/ My moms and pops are deep when it comes to God the most spiritual individuals you'll ever run into, you need advice, a prayer, a kind word, helping hand encouragement they'd lend you/ every Sunday we'd be up in church- my 2 sisters, parents and I- I was too young to understand much but I heard numerous stories Jesus and God, the one who gave us life created the world the one you prayed to when times was hard/ my moms would always school me on events from the bible I wouldn't listen much my mind was idle, I tried to play it off back then going to church wasn't cool in school I'd never mention the subject in fear of losing points with the peers, I know it hurts to write that but this joint is real/ the older I got the more I learned about God and the son he sent us, beginner I gave my life up for God at age eight admitting he died for me washing away my sins thru forgiveness/ my parents was proud I was eager to learn more about being a Christian so when the preacher would speak I'd listen, witnessing the joy my parents had with God in there life I couldn't wait to see heaven for that I could only envision/
Time passed by teenage years hit me realizing me and the church was growing apart, I never told my friends about God embarrassed to say church was my home, at home my moms got on my nerves always referring to the Lord the more she talked about him the further my mind was gone/ no interest in it a teenager more concerned with hooping or which girl I was scooping, losing my faith values -getting in trouble daily everything I learned in church I was constantly abusing/ the truth is I let the devil in and he put me thru hell, thru jail and probation fights with the Fam I lost motivation to live-my freedom was taken trouble followed me like a shadow, I had to break my parents heart four or five times fighting always losing my battles/ I sat thru three years of heartache troubles all caused by myself had no one to blame nor nowhere to turn so I brought prayer back in my life, I was the lowest of lows crying each night looking for strength praying for escape with faith in the Lord I knew it would happen in time/ age seventeen I finally beat the devil at his game I slain him for the hurt and pain he inflicted, wishing I could forgive myself eight years later that part of my heart I still visit/
I'm no angel I wont always make the wisest decisions but I know when I sin I can pray for him to forgive them- at 24 I'm older a growing maturity seeing I cant maintain without the Lord guiding me, I try to be a leader by example you never know who you can influence so I do my best to be shinning big/ no longer hiding my feelings you know 24/7 I'm rolling with God getting crunk for Christ, I know he'll always look after me pulling me thru the bumps in life/ I'll say it to one say it to all GOD IS GREAT with him you cant lose worries is minimal- criminals, killers, rapist, dope fiends he loves the worst of us, he sent his only son to die for our sins his loves the cure for us/ I'm ashamed I denied him at my earlier age but since then I've witnessed his love and compassion, he's always hearing my prayers wiping my tears away its clear today in my heart he's here to stay so thankful for that I trust his actions/ at times I don't understand why events occur but I pray for guidance learning life as its given, admitting I'm nothing without him my life's right when he's in control God is love this is my relationship with God written thru personal experiences in the flesh I'm submitted/
sincerely JORDAN....
MY LOVE STORY
Check this I first met you in 1990 the first impression I wasn’t impressed no less I still gave you the chance to persuade change my mind, 2 years later spendin more time with you enjoying your company seein my interest increase brought a change in time/ 1995 was so special for us a year we came out on top finally sitting with the throne wearing the rings and all, the scene on pause everyone on your tip the whole city behind you damn I was proud- though the next year in 96 they seen us fall/ but still I stood beside you -you bringing me joy at times pissin me off but you know every year that pass by I’m stickin around, the sound of me opening up like this a new aspect of me but you know forever we holding each other down/
As time passed my feelings for you grew every year you seemed to let me down around October I'd tell you I was done with you never to come back a true teaser you was but every April I'd be right back with new hopes arms wide open thinkin don’t disappoint me please, I see the smile I have whenever I’m around you though you piss me off same time you bring me joy we growing closer each year that pass by I’m realizing my interest in you increased/ I remember the moment I realized I loved you September 23 2004 seated in your house when it hit me- I promised I'd always give you my all be there thru thick and thin, when shit was goin on wrong in everyday life you were there to take my mind off the bull given me something to ease the stress /when your outta town yo for real I’m missing ya/ 04 you let me down damn truthfully even shed a tear when we ended didn’t wanna let you go so many good memories together we created, 05 came about forgiven you for letting me down its all love now but shit October came and you broke my heart again-fuck you for this feeling I was devastated/
IT hasn’t been the same since 06 but you know my love for you is only growing I’m in love with you and not ashamed to say it, I face it your named tatted on me so we together forever- thru all the disappointments the tears of losing the joys of winning my heart always got you near it- the memories we shared in my mind they always replay it/ whenever I’m around you I’m like a kid in the candy store I cant get enough yo hand me more /so thankful for all you given me the connection we have I don’t expect anyone to understand it but that’s what makes it one of a kind, madd time and money I spend on you goin thru the emotions the good the bad the ugly the great I’m addicted I cant get enough of you -your never far from my thoughts I pray for your success it stays on my mind/ my favorite line is when you win I go home happy so thankful for you there’s nothing better then the feeling you bring me forever in my heart that’s where your gonna stay man, I just wanted you to know I love you we'll be together forever sincerely yours the number one BRAVES FAN/
I LOVE MY TEAM!
As time passed my feelings for you grew every year you seemed to let me down around October I'd tell you I was done with you never to come back a true teaser you was but every April I'd be right back with new hopes arms wide open thinkin don’t disappoint me please, I see the smile I have whenever I’m around you though you piss me off same time you bring me joy we growing closer each year that pass by I’m realizing my interest in you increased/ I remember the moment I realized I loved you September 23 2004 seated in your house when it hit me- I promised I'd always give you my all be there thru thick and thin, when shit was goin on wrong in everyday life you were there to take my mind off the bull given me something to ease the stress /when your outta town yo for real I’m missing ya/ 04 you let me down damn truthfully even shed a tear when we ended didn’t wanna let you go so many good memories together we created, 05 came about forgiven you for letting me down its all love now but shit October came and you broke my heart again-fuck you for this feeling I was devastated/
IT hasn’t been the same since 06 but you know my love for you is only growing I’m in love with you and not ashamed to say it, I face it your named tatted on me so we together forever- thru all the disappointments the tears of losing the joys of winning my heart always got you near it- the memories we shared in my mind they always replay it/ whenever I’m around you I’m like a kid in the candy store I cant get enough yo hand me more /so thankful for all you given me the connection we have I don’t expect anyone to understand it but that’s what makes it one of a kind, madd time and money I spend on you goin thru the emotions the good the bad the ugly the great I’m addicted I cant get enough of you -your never far from my thoughts I pray for your success it stays on my mind/ my favorite line is when you win I go home happy so thankful for you there’s nothing better then the feeling you bring me forever in my heart that’s where your gonna stay man, I just wanted you to know I love you we'll be together forever sincerely yours the number one BRAVES FAN/
I LOVE MY TEAM!
MY LIFE
Yo I grew up infatuated with sports only son of my moms hard headed stubborn competive young dude never lose was what I always repeated, peep it I was shy when it came to the women they never paid me no mind no time given bein a mack was only in my dreams and visions never thought I get no play or hollers it seemed if/ I couldnt get no worse my teenage years I was wildin probation bein in court seemed an every month occurance endurance just to beat it -mentally I was deflated til I got tired of playin the deliquent role at 17 told myself ''yo this aint the route to go, took on a more positive mode so changes I was about to show bound to hold myself accountable no more trouble no more nights cryin ashamed of my actions time to man up cant act a clown no more/ graduated high school enrolled in community college focused barely- rarely passed math courses forcin me out the door- 3 years academically suspended, the first year Im buggin like ''what do i do now'' workin odd and end jobs savin any dough I could- the ends just wasnt movin frustration risin stressin liven no stridin payin bills barely gettin by/ still in the game but never winnin this I cant condemn it/ moms tellin me take it back to school but Im feelin like Kanye -college dropout-school just not the route poppin for me, so lost not knowin what to do so I turned to God askin for Guidance awaitin open doors Lord show the options for me/ my head wasnt where it shoulda been too into women /my team anything else under the sun so God took me out the city I love told me go to Virginia and strengthen your faith in me if you wanna get back to Atlanta, I stand in 5 months later a better man in the midst of transformation Im waitin til graduation my faith is stronger then its ever been prayin til the day I wake up callin the A home again with loot able to provide for myself independant seein a true man standin reflecting back in the mirror I've expanded the/ relationship the faith the word Im doin Gods will trustin in him thru all the happenings ,frustration, broke days, bein down, its all a thing of the past Gods driving my life now so success got my name chasin it maken it BIG I know I'll come to see smilin knowin Gods got me right where he wants me -but word- trust me when I say Atlanta I'll be back again/ a better dude, strong spirit, positive vibe ,a change you'll feel just in my prescence you see it, God tellin me trust him with this one its gone all work out fine so I sit back watchin him workin on me -patient- but yo most of all I believing/
LOVE IS IN THE AIR
LOVE IS IN THE AIR
Current mood: peaceful
Category: Romance and Relationships
They tell me there's no love in my heart they couldn't be further from the truth my hearts in tune with my mind but mentally its empty- simply put I've never connected with another soul where we became one together, something's are better taken with time I know I'm moving at a tortoise pace but I'm sure my faith will land me where I want to be- in the end with a Queen who completes me keeping my ass in check if need me I see these visions but the moments far from imminent these women been given me trouble since age 15 so my hearts closed up still I post up awaiting the pass hesitating- damn! I stand by for the one I run forever/ with- thru sick days and misplays the kid stays rite beside you and guides you to fight thru times where shit get heated- needing space to cool it off -its no sweat cus she'll come right back to me understanding its all part of relationships growing pains, though strained I'm realizing she's sincere really loving me willing to do anything to please me its easy looking into her eyes seeing the loyalty spoiling me flipside I got her too- admit she has me doing shit I never did before spitting words I never said before - treating her like a Queen she's showing me/ knowing these broads before her painted an ugly picture so the taste left was sickening- I'm listening when she schools me on the tools to becoming a man- truthfully I'm not that experienced never wanted a relationship before so this is all new to me, using the maturity from growing up I'm showing her I care I still at times make poor decisions- pissing her off but yo her being mad kind of turns me on-together we learning strong -thru time spent seeing she's true to me/ beautifully mental and physical shorty is everything I want in a woman- even attends Braves games with me kissing me after we win- Damn I got my team and my girl cant get much better then this I spend hours up late night working on communication so the trust is high we touch the sky blessing God for placing us into each others life I strive to grow as a man continuing to work on becoming closer to my- Queen, life seems at peace complete when we holding each other- she's strengthening me I'm molding her showing her I can love too but this takes awhile- caught up in the moment waiting for her but yo no stress I'm confident she'll come until then I'm praying for her night-ly
Current mood: peaceful
Category: Romance and Relationships
They tell me there's no love in my heart they couldn't be further from the truth my hearts in tune with my mind but mentally its empty- simply put I've never connected with another soul where we became one together, something's are better taken with time I know I'm moving at a tortoise pace but I'm sure my faith will land me where I want to be- in the end with a Queen who completes me keeping my ass in check if need me I see these visions but the moments far from imminent these women been given me trouble since age 15 so my hearts closed up still I post up awaiting the pass hesitating- damn! I stand by for the one I run forever/ with- thru sick days and misplays the kid stays rite beside you and guides you to fight thru times where shit get heated- needing space to cool it off -its no sweat cus she'll come right back to me understanding its all part of relationships growing pains, though strained I'm realizing she's sincere really loving me willing to do anything to please me its easy looking into her eyes seeing the loyalty spoiling me flipside I got her too- admit she has me doing shit I never did before spitting words I never said before - treating her like a Queen she's showing me/ knowing these broads before her painted an ugly picture so the taste left was sickening- I'm listening when she schools me on the tools to becoming a man- truthfully I'm not that experienced never wanted a relationship before so this is all new to me, using the maturity from growing up I'm showing her I care I still at times make poor decisions- pissing her off but yo her being mad kind of turns me on-together we learning strong -thru time spent seeing she's true to me/ beautifully mental and physical shorty is everything I want in a woman- even attends Braves games with me kissing me after we win- Damn I got my team and my girl cant get much better then this I spend hours up late night working on communication so the trust is high we touch the sky blessing God for placing us into each others life I strive to grow as a man continuing to work on becoming closer to my- Queen, life seems at peace complete when we holding each other- she's strengthening me I'm molding her showing her I can love too but this takes awhile- caught up in the moment waiting for her but yo no stress I'm confident she'll come until then I'm praying for her night-ly
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