Passion

What drives your passion to leave your mark in this world- I often wonder how I'll be viewed when my times done what impact will I leave from my time on this earth, my inspiration comes from those  who braved Americas toughest day risking life's to save others - passengers on planes stepping up being the front line for the country so much chaos in the air I think about there brave sacrifice everyday so I write with a purpose/keeping there memory alive Also those in military who died fighting for freedom battling til there last breath I salute you the impact you had on my life weighs heavy, let me have the pedestal to share your story so it never dies I strive to have impacts on others the day they have impacted me the core of my heart pumps with that desire I confess and believe/ I will - the way I live each day others taken notice seeing how you handle pressure situations to tempt you - how you deal when you getting short end- ignorant odds aren't in your corner they watching, soften a stance lord give me the strength when I'm weak is when the evils coming for blood knock out punch they swinging overcoming those days still standing whipping dirt off continue walking - destination path I've got in/situations mad at myself experience tough lessons life hands you it's all how you take and use it to your advantage keep going - I'm not perfect my faults is major God help me tighten up , expressing what lies in my heart the impact to touch lives in the long run even after my songs done  I pray I'm viewed as Beamer, Crowther and Murphy are- in my eyes my thoughts prayers and passions where I left them/ heaven called them  home but on earth I'm  building my own legacy living everyday life help me get closer to you Lord expand my faith to levels leaving all in awe, I fall and call out Gods will be done a lasting imprint I desire by the time I'm done entering eternity my legacy installed/

Today's memo

I'm at a time in my life my thoughts pulling me in different directions which path to walk who to confide into - wanting companionship many nights spent alone, my mind left to roam are the ones in my corner really what's  best for me fighting off negative influences I don't wanna be like them that shit I can't condone/ the throne I'm chasing a place where I'm stable at peace enjoying life  all the blessings in it - when your not there it's easy to deminish everyday living I'm driven to better myself for me and her my Ava its crazy when I tell myself yo your a dad , my pad I  put down thoughts up top caught in between - I'm lost searching direction my destiny  some choices I've made - bad/ living life learning weaving through mistakes where's my purpose -at times feeling like I'm failing money come short stress go high trying to get by get my feet under walking the path asking myself what do you want from life what's your goals what are you doing to achieve them, seeing some dont deserve to move forward with me it hurts leaving em behind but that's life -God knows best even when we don't I ease on working on growth with him - alone so I turn to him- speaking listening reading his word the relationships real the guidance I need to lean on/ can't expect companionship when I'm not right within myself trying to cleanse myself of negativity dead weight and ways not getting me where I need to be, within reach I see what I need to do praying give me strength to progress and grow help me become a better man a better friend a stronger influence to those I cross I believe indeed/ sowing seeds will bring you blessings in time speaking through my heart blessings in rhymes at times poetry's my escape my release when the world buggin and my pen itching to speak , I don't tryin preach just trying reach you to bring you into my world - my struggles my hopes my visions it's here to shine bright I continue to fight weaving through life's obstacles I often view where I come from and where I need to be taken steps forward until my goals in reach/

Life- strength/ patience

So many things in life can bring you down - money, friends, unsure which road to turn Down next, I confess I struggle with these but to The Lord I look to lead, mistook by greed the material things of the world often corrupt it worse we so lost - a society where the simplest things matter minimal speaking on this I took to seed/ souls that need it - often times I'm talking to myself how to lead by example- I spend days in deep thought  viewing those around me - who am I closet to - are they  building me up or bringing me down - negative vibes will kill your spirit, with will I fill  it  struggling  with keeping life long friends whose ways  differ totally from mine- activity I don't condone morals I wouldn't own I don't look down but it's not the type of company I need to be around I'm feeling/ lost alone in my thoughts at times wanting companionship a good friend to chill - make me smile on those days I need to- other days she a reason I smile the one to confide and trust building from friendship to love a blessing from the man above, I'm patient waiting for her until then focusing on self improvement I trust/ the path I need to take to success the journey highs and lows forming the person Iam - being bigger person in situations where the world tells you to strike back I choose to lean on faith for conclusion- these thoughts cross my mind daily, stability purpose in life my inner circle around me is it benefiting or breaking me down - opening my heart up to love where 2 becomes 1 I know my queen is coming - fighting through the fear of unknown I place my circumstances on faith - lord give me strength and patience I pray/