DREAMING

I'm thinking about her everyday- how she's gonna change my life the impact she'll have the way she" ll make me smile, she raised me while I'm down encouraging me to keep fighting helpin me grow as a man bein the one she wants to love forever I try to/ balance it all the emotions the feelings having her in my life has brought - was single so long this new to me a challenge I'm winning living with purpose there's inner peace inside finally within me - I love kissin her when we cuddlin nothin else matters as long as her head Layin on my chest , I been blessed since the first convo we had the connection was epic knowing she was the one though I kept it cool- in time we grew closer confirming my instincts I must confess/ shes the best thing that's ever happened to me my life compliment to the fullest I love the bond we share I care like I never have before there's no way to compare within my heart what's in there the depth she's moved through- there's no secrets I confide into her with all she knows my heart my mind my spirit the connection we have is impeccable, accepting you for who you are not trying to change I realize no one is perfect but we are the best team around I found my soul mate old days alone now my life's shared with you investing to/ better our lives Forward in love,stability, the important areas in life I know you"ll always be by my side, I rise open my eyes in deep thought for what I want- my queen will come within myself there's work to be done anticipating the one until then Solo I ride/

LOVE??

They ask me about love-why am I not in it why have I not had it- let me get deep- to love another you have to love yourself first- look in the mirror priceless seein self worth, I battle emotions tough on mistakes Ive made workin thru motions overcomin self hurt/ the guilt livin life to learn weavin thru situations breakin you down to build you up Im buildin tough- as time passes open up mentally to let someone in, easier said then done but its steps to take to get where you want to be - havin that feelin knowin someones down for ya to cheer  you up make you smile that love that gives/ you peace inside- knowin this is the one Gods sent for you- Im on the journey to get there growin emotionally, mentally, financially has to come first, doors open when Gods will wants it- I trust that but in the mean time do self improving- I like the man Im becomin  seein growth but still a ways to go Ive done more/ changin in the  last 3 years then my entire life- for myself first then for  my future wife- I look within myself and see Im not ready to become one -I still got work to do within me until I join forces, with a queen it takes time to become that- am I ready for love truthfully I dont  know- my hearts fightin battles searchin for peace but Im open to blessings Gods got in store- I know where I was 3 years ago and where Iam today- not where I wanna be but maken progression with an open mind of course its/ moments I relapse thinkin to old ways knowin temptation tryin lure me back but I  look for the new to be done with the old- love is a beautiful thing when its done in Gods hands, Im on my way there seein my faults workin and prayin thru them Im realizing being single is cool but slowly beginning to desire another one to call my own but most important keepin mind it happens in time with Gods plan/